We are praying and hoping things will get better for you.

Aww my word!!  My heart goes out to you!! I pray things will get better for you too!! I know this won't help but heres a Giant Hug for you all and if you ever need a friend or shoulder to cry on I am here for you!!

Our family sends out special thoughts and prayers to you and your family during this difficult time.

Sincerly, Maile Nei, Pepeiao, JJ, Kiko, Suki, and Kainoa and their human parents  

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and yours in this difficult time.

Sarah

Thank you everyone.

and Ninimal.. bol. I thought I told you about all that when it happend..

=[

Still no word on my mom and its been a week and a day since the episode happend. =[ In fact no one has heard anything. My dads cut her off from returning to that store..so now ugh.. I'll just let it rest in the lords hands.

Soon enough though, I am taking a trip to Houston to see what can be done for my little brother to get him out of the situation. (well to me, hes still "little brother" LOL he's 14 now) Even if it means going to Child protective services and letting them read my personal journals from when I was younger and see how its like to grow up that way.

Thank you everyone for the prayers.

The Air Force called also last night, they want to get me in ASAP. -_-

This just added to the difficult decision.

I really want to go into the military( yup even though my boyfriend is a proud U.S. Soldier and you think one of us in the military would be enough..lol) but with my moms health the way it is.. I'm afraid to.

My mom is 39.. she shouldnt be anywhere near "dying" yet. ..but unfortunately, she is. we're suspecting foul play going on, but no way to prove it.

anyway i''ve said too much as it is..

Just thank you all again.

oh god Brie I saw that on myspace but I didn't know that she was...dying... :(  maybe I can say I know how stressful it is to go through that..

What you need is a vacation...come up here with me, okay?  :D

Brie, I am so sorry to hear that you are having so much to deal with and that your mom is so ill.  I know we don't know each other except for when our paths cross in these forums, but you have our love and prayers.  When there just doesn't seem like an answer is coming your way....just keep on praying and keep the faith.  It sounds like you are being hit up with too many decisions to try to make at once.  Just remember, while taking care of the immediate and/or short term situations....to keep in mind your future well-being and the long term situations and decisions that you need to make.  Weigh each thing out carefully and try to find the balance.  Once again, sending prayers for you and your family. 

Keesie's mom

Oh no Brie :( I heard about alot of this from talking to you on yahoo, and gossip from the other yahooers but I never put two and two together and realized how stressful this must be for you :( So many tough decisions at once...like Maile said, one day at a time. Just take everything in and think it though. I'm sure in the end everything will turn out ok and this stressful timeframe will be overwith :( Hope all goes well! Love from Boomer, Paco, Bandit and the gang

KIFA!! I know you of all people would understand. =[ its really hard to sit here 800 freakin miles away from her and be completely helpless on being able to help her. Espeically since my dad made her do that living will sh*t. We really do suspect foul play since shes just steadily gone downhill in the past year.. and well few years.

Its just gotten worse this year...and i hate the fact that the last time i saw her, she had tears in her eyes, telling me she loved me and I basically pushed her away..too angry to even look at her in the eyes, or join in with her tears. After all.. I blamed her for alot of things....even if it wasn't her fault.

and here it is, almost 3 years later, and ugh.. its just.. I wish there was something i could do legally..but i can't.

and if she does..die.. i'm 800 miles away..and I never got to hug her and tell her i'm sorry in person. =[ and then if i'm in the air force.. then what? I gotta take leave time that I dont have ???

Its really just stressful

so yeah boomer, its really hard and stressful and i'm sorry i yelled at you the other night.. but really i wasn't playing.. and yeah.. this is hard.

I have alot of decisions to make.. like should I take my dad to court, and challenge my moms living will? Should I join the air force now or should I wait? Should I move to Virginia with Rick and Kasey and Tater, or should I wait? Should I join the reserves? Should i go to Child protective services and try to get my brother out of my parents house?

So many decisions to make..and at 20 years old (well close enough now) I should not even have to be considering any of these things. Nor should my mom be giving away her things, telling people shes going to die soon.

Nor at 20 should I have had to deal with what I have in the past couple of years..but,

that that dont kill you, can only make you stronger.

and I always rise above it.

I have to. I had to. and I will always continue to do so.

Now and forever.

and all i gotta say is my step dad needs to watch himself, because when i get there, it aint gonna be pretty. I will fight and i will fight to the end and if he lets her die because of his selfish medical neglect and reasoning. (HE WONT LET HER GO TO THE DOCTOR, YET HE WENT TO THE DOCTOR FOR HIS EYE!!)

 NON CEDO FERIO!!!

Thank you all for the support.

Brie ( is that the person? Brie, Its Taras mum Izzy here) I have to say .. I think that you should go be with your mum !! My Dad died of a heart attack, he was an alcoholic and lived 120 miles from me, I saw him 3 or 4 times per year and every time he was drunk! I never helped!! :(   I just had my own thoughts and life to get on with!! But the last time I saw him he was in a bad way!! Drinking nearly all the time, hardly eating ...etc etc...  I should have done something more for him.. maybe took him to a doctors??  But I never!!  Instead I was hurt and upset by his choice of life and barely phoned him!!  I have felt regret and hurt ever since he died .. wishing I could have did something to help or change things or.. JUST BE THERE!!

Its NOT your guilt, but it is also your mum, and by the sounds of things your mum is having a really rough time right now too!! If I was to offer advice I would say ...go spend time with your mum, hold her hand and brush her hair! Be there for her and then you will always know that you did your best and you won't live life regretting what you never done!   Life is short but for those of us that have our health then there is a long time to go living it and to help another or touch another through hard and painful times is surely only a little to spare!

I wish you all the very best and my heart is completely out there for you all!!!  You will do what is best for you and don't ever feel bad for your choices!

Like we said to Izzy, I wish I could go see my mom.. but they kicked me out three years ago, and have no wishes to see me..since I "dont serve the lord the way they do"

No one can serve the Lord the way they do, You're expected to be perfect and never make a mistake... among many other strange reasonings my dad came up with to add to his little "religion"

i dont want people to think my moms crazy bol..so i wont post too much about that..

but yeah =/ we cant really just go down and see her and spend time, when we aren't allowed or welcome